Layal K ~ ليال

لا تحزن

اليوم رحنا لعند رامي …كان عازمنا على الغدا…غدا وداع لأنّو مسافر بكرة…انبسطنا كتير…بس قمنا لنفل…عطاني كيس….”رجعت عدتا يا رامي؟!! يا عمّي نحنا الّي لازم نجبلك الهدايا”… مظبوط إمّو قالت إنّو مش رح يمشي حاله بالدنيا لمّا كان بدّو يروح هو عند ناس يودعهم…بدل ما هنّي يجو
المهم, فتحت الكيس لقيت فيه كتاب لدكتور اسمو عائض القرني بعنوان “لا تحزن” …كل هالقد مبيّنة انا متضايقة؟؟ او بس مجرد صدفة؟؟ مكتوب إنّو نباع منّو أكتر من مليون نسخة…يعني كتاب معروف…وبمثّل هدية مناسبة…هي صدفة…انا بطبيعتي بخبّي…لأ,صدفة…أو لأ؟ معقول مبيّن عليّ لدرجة إنّو شافني بحاجة لمساعدة؟؟ لأ…صدفة صدفة
عكل حال…بكل كتاب لازم اعمل شغلة…بفتح الكتاب من نُصّه وبشوف…بهيدا طلعلي الآتي

أيُّها الشامتُ المُعيِّرُ بالدَّهــــــ      ـــــــرِ أأنتَ المبرَّؤُ الموفورُ

أمْ لديكَ العهدُ الوثيقُ من الأيَّـ      ــــامِ بلْ أنتَ جاهلٌ مغرورُ

3afwan: She Bekharre…

I had an “intro to management” class last Monday…during the first 45 minutes..It was a smooth and peaceful lecture, about multiculturalism and diversity in organizations….

Anyway…during the class, a guy said: “…for example, in the gulf, or gulf people have this pride and the feeling that they are above all the Arabs..” and the whole class agreed and they all started talking about their personal experience (my ass)that proves the statement: “yeah..they lived in a desert and suddenly got rich and now they think they own us…”, “I know a guy who went there and found some people who know nothing about anything and they’re holding important job positions at the same time”….etc. I don’t know but I just got tired of this attitude…
“Smallah 3alayna na7na”…

The same words we always hear…”bedouins”, “arrogant”,”desert”…etc. Have these fellows watched the latest elections in Bahrain? they were all computerized while we still have people looking up names in the papers…did these fellows try to get a family Kaid -or whatever the name is- (إخراج قيد) ? how many times did they get the correct one from the first time? They have oil, what do you we have (other than debts)? Tourism ?! we should thank *them* for that and it’s gone because of the war and what followed it (although I don’t believe that we had it aslan)… They are arrogant?! They are extremely rich and they just buy people and waste money on anything? Ohh excuse me…we don’t have this kind of people??? Remind me again who is the person who is known by the phrase: “بيتديًّن ليتزيُّن” ????

I’m not defending them…I’ve never been to that area to judge…and I’ve never dealt with anyone from that area…so I don’t know if that’s true or not and I don’t even care…and even it it was true….at least they have *something* to brag about!!! and we have our stupid *things* we follow blindly (does Hayfa count??).
I noticed this in Lebanon…we tend to bring down the others to look good instead of wasting the same efforts on US in order to improve.

Again, I’m not defending anyone here..but “People who live in glass houses shouldn’t throw stones.“

Note: Only one guy actually replied to what I said in class and said: “We have the resistance!”. You’re right my friend but not all of our (great)people agree that it’s a resistance or even Lebanese!
Another Note: I’m not attacking Lebanon, I’m a proud Lebanese but I hate the state we reached and the way we think now!

No old blogger


I can’t view your blogs guys :'( please switch to the new one!!! Thank god I can still follow the feeds in my reader…I wanted to tell Hilal that I ask myself the same question everyday…and tell Zeinobia that the I usually follow the links she gives but I won’t follow the one here (and I’m not a weak heart person)…and hey jij, maybe this is a sign to make you reopen your blog again…it went crazy when you left 🙁

Update: It’s up again 😀 Welcome back Everyone!!!!

lebanese nightS

Recursion

you get hurt…so you get away…so you get better…then the cause pops out of nowhere again…so you get hurt…so you get away………………..

Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas Everyone!
Especially my Armenian friends here and Coptic friends in Egypt.

Year 2007

Although I do this on my birthday not now but Blue tagged me so here we go:

Something to achieve next year:
Graduate, Start Cisco classes and finish them too, get a job(other than the current one), be a better guitarist (especially when it comes to chords), be a better Yogi, get new and good friends, be able to trust, save some money and then waste them on an electric guitar or an iPod…there’s more but i can’t think of them now.

Something impacted me last year:
The Israeli attack on Lebanon.

Only thing I enjoyed in the group:
Friendly people.

What I’ll miss about 2006:
Nothing. It was more than enough to live 2006 for one year!

Feel free to tag yourself 🙂

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I won’t leave…

When I graduated from high school…It was me who left and ended up alone for the first while…Now, I’ll graduate from college and I won’t leave but I will end up alone too…EVERYONE is leaving…I can’t find a single friend who graduated and still is in Lebanon…and there are few who left even before they graduate…some went to UAE, some went to the states, others went to Australia…etc. There are only one or two who didn’t leave but they want and they will soon and their current jobs are temporary(for them). It’s really hard to me to understand this process, I was 40 days old when I left Lebanon, and I was almost 18 when I came back and guess what?! I never regretted this decision; not because it was horrible out there, on the contrary, it was pretty nice but I will never consider living somewhere else but here.

Back to “there”, the building we lived in had up to 7 Lebanese families in it. And for those who tried to live abroad, you will find it normal… Yes we tend to group together despite all the differences, which makes it really weird when you find the opposite happening here!

Anyway, for those who want to leave (or already left), I am a sample of your future, my parents left as a new married couple, some left single and got married there, some left engaged and got married and the spouse came with him/her later. All of them had children while living abroad, all of them lived there for at least 10 years (my parents 20), all of them had a successful life (keep in mind this is not the case…you might not be that lucky), all of them enjoyed a life that they wouldn’t dream of if they stayed here, and ALL of them are coming back now, the building I told you about… 1 family is still there, and the rest…. they visit each other here now!

I didn’t come back because I miss here, I didn’t even know here to miss it. The thing is no matter how friendly the people are, no matter how living there is great, I always felt I’m a stranger, and believe me it’s not nice to live as a stranger!

And I always say this to my friends: “اشرف الي اتبهدل ببلدي مش برّا”

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Loulou &Khalil

Khalil was Loulou’s first and only friend in the first 5-6 years or her life..she knew what friendship is through him…then one day, Khalil went back to his homeland…Loulou did too,but 13 years after….years went by and Loulou became 20…she didn’t forget Khalil…”does he still remember me?” she wondered…”Loulou, guess who’s coming now”…Khalil! it was him…just as she remembers him…and he still remembers her….Photo albums everywhere…Guitar…Poems…Drawings….Loulou is happy….she’s lucky having this pure friendship that lasts…no deceit…no hate…no envy…just pure friendship between Loulou &Khalil.

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قمعستان

قصيدة رائعة لنزار قبّاني عند سمسوم تونس هنا. مقدمة سمسوم ذكرتني بالحكي التونسي…صحيح كنت صغيرة لمّا عشت هونيك(40 يوم لخمس سنين) بس مذكرة الحكي والعالم و بيتنا منيح…نحب تونس برشا
للسمع بالإضافة لقصائد اخرى: هون